Old Habits...

So here I am drinking whiskey coke at 1 am in the morning trying my darndest best to try to sleep, and I fail miserably...Basically I wimped and turned to drinking again to try to ease my pains...Damn, I am a wimp...but really sometimes its painful, my existence that is...Life is a living nightmare with stuff that I don't want to see, and when I sleep I usually dream of stuff I don't wanna dream. So basically the alcohol is to ensure that I sleep but don't dream so at least I can get respite from a miserable life...sounds flawed...I think so too...