Struggle, and my losing battle

I'm sorry, not to you only but to myself, because I found myself caught in a losing battle that I should have never tried in the first place. I know who you are now. And I know that evreyone wants a piece of you. That little bit of you that I hold on to is slipping away. I don't even know your name now. If your name is false, then is your existence real? I don't think I know you now. That little bit that I've held is you, but just a small part of you. Caught up in a losing battle between myself and you ( and everyone else), I no longer sure of what I should do? Should I hold on to what is false memories, since your name now is no longer known to me? I shouldn't hold on any longer. There's not enough of you left now for me to hold on to. I don't know you anymore, I am not sure of who you are anymore. I give up, I surrender, I've lost.