Thursday, January 19, 2006

Walking Away

Okay, I dunno what to say but I am tired already. tired of whats happening , tired of life in general. Day by day my life just gets more depressing and I get more cynical. I have decided to walk away from my life. Not run away from home or school, but just walk away from my life now, to....I dunno, maybe live my life anew. Discover new things and find old stuff and passion I've lost over the past years as my mind gets messed up. I've had enough....

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

I wish you knew

To the person who'll never know,

I'm sorry that from now on I have to ignore you. Its not that I don't wanna be friends with you no more, frankly I wish I could...Believe me, its not easy but I have to stop myself at some point. For I know that I'm falling for you. Knowing you have been a blessing I never deserved. You brought me light in dark hours, the times I have you near me brings me comforts I never knew. I never lie when I said you look cute, if only you can see the look in my eyes when I said so. Yet I know that we can never be, and now I have to leave. Get out of your mind, get out of your life. Hopefully by semester's end, even my shadows will not remain. I have to stay away, for I fear getting stuck deeper and deeper, trapped in the quicksands of time. The comfort that you bring is like a drug, and I'm getting addicted to you. I have to stop here, cause I know that getting addicted will kill me, for we can never be. I know. So forgive me for what I am about to do cause from now you'll not know more about me, you will not hear from me, nor will I call you again. I will not try to ask you out nor will I try to ask you for coffee in school anymore, for I know that your happiness lies with him and not me. For me, we have reached the end, I see no road ahead, nor can I go back.I wish you all the best, but I wished you knew...

Poor Depressed Soul that needs an outlet.


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